Withdrawl

Two straight weeks of being together constantly. 5 days of relying on facebook, texting, and phone calls. Withdrawl. I was doing ok til I came down to play pool. Last time I was down here playing pool was before he left. Gahhh I miss him! I need to practice so when he comes back I can own him. Well not really, more like so I don't fail miserably. As for foosball, I'm fairly sure I'll still get beat there. 2 1/2 weeks to go. Has it really only been 5 days? So little time so much we'll want to do when he's back in town. I might be going to the wedding he's dj-ing that sunday, we'll see how things turn out and if he's allowed to bring a guest. That then of course requires me finding something to wear. Easier said than done.

I'm currently on the phone with him...sorta. His mom called like 2minutes after he called me so he's talking to her and I'm chillin on the other line. Annie is on my lap trying to sit between me and my computer. Not working so well. I may just hang up and have him call me back since it's using minutes. I hung up and texted him saying call me when you're done with your mom, she has priority.

Other random stuff: went school supply shopping, got a planner in purple (woot!) and other stuffs, meds are clearing up the staph infection on my legs really well. Only bummer is they make me itchy and the skin around my mouth feels kinda weird, like dry or something. Idk it's whatever, not annoying enough to pay more money to change meds. If it becomes and issue I'll call them for something new. School starts in a couple weeks.

Time for some pool then seeing if Luke wants to go to dinner/drive me to Frederick for moon pies.

Peace y'all.

P.S. Common Sense Life Lesson for the week: USE YOUR FREAKING BLINKERS! Seriously people, it's not that hard.

Countdown: 17 days

Good Things Come to Those Who Wait

God promises that when we obey, we will be rewarded. On occasion, these rewards are more tangible and visible. When I decided that the right thing to do was to honour my parents by agreeing to live at home this semester, I didn't want to do it. I felt that it was the right thing to do and felt God's peace about my decision when I did agree though. My reward was God bringing me a wonderful Christian guy to hang out with for the last two weeks. "Officially unofficial" is the only formal title we put to it, since he's moved to Rhode Island for 5 months to take a job. I'm not terribly distraught though. He'll be back a couple times in September for some dj jobs he committed to before leaving, plus hopefully sometime around Thanksgiving or Christmas, and we'll be in constant communication.

It's times like these that I really reflect on how good God is, when He chooses to send us very tangible reminders. At the beginning of the summer, I was very uninterested in anything like a relationship for various reasons, and was despairing my overall luck with guys. I had no clue that 2 months later I'd be a little more than friends with a guy who is not only fun to be around and easy to talk to, but also a Godly example. Not to mention that before he moved, he lived abaout 10 minutes from me...not important but definitely convenient when we were staying up til all sorts of stupid hours watching tv and having adventures.

School starts late this year. Most of my classes start Sept. 1, my Korean class actually starts the 8th. Doing the two campus thing will be interesting. Weds morning 9am class will be tough but so far it's my only early class. None of the other days have class before 1pm which is good and bad. It's kinda what screwed me over last semester. I was up til 4am every night cause I didn't have to wake up til 11am. I imagine my parents won't let me sleep that late living at home, and I won't really have all the freedom to be out and about horribly late, though I will have the car. Luke is going to Maryland but I keep the car since I'm living home going to school. There are perks!

God is good. Job 34:10 I keep written on my wrist as a reminder that "Far be it from the Almighty to do wrong." It is a constant reminder to me when I'm frustrated that God knows what He is doing and has a plan. cf. Jeremiah 29:11.

Peace Y'all.

[21 days and counting down]

Unity is Coming!!

I'm super excited!! Echo and Intervarsity are finally starting to hang together!! This is what I've been hoping for since I got here!! There is so much disconnect among the various Christian groups on campus, and this semester it looks like we're finally starting to form some cohesion. Echo, now called OneU, isn't doing much this semester so their leadership has been encouraging us to just keep finding other Christians to hang with. On Wednesdays during free hour, we have United Prayer, which is where all the Christian groups on campus meet to pray with one another. It's led by a different organization every week, such as Intervarsity, OneU, Korean Campus Ministry, etc. This is new this semester, but seems to be going a long way towards bringing the various groups together. After all, we're all one in Christ, so why should we all be our own little cliques on campus? How are we supposed to spread Christ's love all broken up and disconnected? So I'm quite excited and can't wait to see what the future holds for this :)

Off to play Apples to Apples!

Peace Y'all.

Busy Busy

For only having four classes, I've been decently busy over these first few weeks of school. Thankfully it's manageable and nothing terribly difficult. I'm supposed to be writing up my critique of a classmate's paper from Poli 360, and Billy would scold me if he knew I was getting distracted yet again but I finished all the grammar stuff and muddling my way through the horrific phraseology of the paper. I don't understand how whoever wrote it (we all have numbers instead of names, I guess to promote more objective critiques?) can butcher their phrasing and grammar so much. The only excuse is if they are one of the students who doesn't speak English as a first language. Otherwise, I have to wonder how in the world they passed 8th grade English. Not trying to sound overly judgemental here, but these people seriously need to learn how to write academically. Starting sentences with "But" or "And"...not cool. Using two "but" clauses in the same sentence...really folks? It's not that difficult. You don't have to be an amazing writer, just write with some sense and clarity! Also, when the prof says 2 pages, he means TWO PAGES! Not 3, not 2.5, but 2. ugh. at least it gets me something to rant on in the critique.

On a related note, I got a text book at the UMBC bookstore for a reasonable price...shocking! $26 for my Poli text book, which was the only reason I actually bought it from here versus online or sharing Alethea's. Spanish book was close around $100...yeah not buying that one. Hooray for the library, same with History, cuz Heaven knows we don't actually read all 14 books. Since we can't do the papers on any of them it makes more sense to just get them from the library as theyre needed.

Speaking of the library, I'm still kinda ticked they turned the 7th floor study lounge into a computer lab, but in all fairness, it has been helpful. I went over to the library to print out a paper today, and I was amazed at technology. The paper was saved to my flash drive, and as I look at it, I'm amazed at how I can type something up on my computer, put a little stick in the side of my computer, and with a few clicks, my 2 page paper is now on this little tiny rectangular thingydo. It's pretty nifty, and extremely convenient. What's not convenient is that I had to walk to the library to print said paper, because of course my printer is STILL on the fritz...gotta get that checked out this weekend. I don't go to a nerd school for nothing, so time to find one of my tech savvy friends and get them to fix it. Also need to make a trip to walmart this weekend and buy ink, seeing as the ink I need is of course the ONE KIND THE BOOKSTORE DOESN'T SELL. gaaaahhhh.

So now that I've sorted out some thoughts, time to get back to that critique so I can sleep.

peace y'all.

P.S. Common Sense Life Lesson for the Week: Don't wear heels to a basketball game when you know you're gonna be on your feet cheering the whole time. I am so smart sometimes...(/sarcasm)

some not so emo musings

Recently I've come to the conclusion that I am spoiled. Very spoiled. Not just in that I've never wanted for anything, but that for the most part, when I want something or want my way about something I get it. This is true of my home life and alot of my social life. Not precisely sure why. Thankfully it hasn't rotted me too much...yet. I pray it doesn't. My only guess as to why I am spoiled is that I'm generally not the demanding type. Growing up at home I was (I've been told) the "easy" child, for the most part. I got good grades, I had good friends, I didn't get in trouble at school, I didn't cause too much trouble at home. Around friends, I'm not the one asserting my own way or making my wants a priority. I'm nobody's floor mat, but I'll just watch things to see how they develop before asserting a definite opinion. I've got somewhat of a reputation as a good girl, although anyone who knows me well will tell you there's more to me than the sweet angel I present. Some people have yet to be convinced of this, not quite sure why...(I'm not really an angel, I just act like one). So why do I think I'm so spoiled? The times I've cared about something enough to assert my desire or wanted my own way about something badly enough to do something about it, I've gotten it. With few exceptions, and those being minor, this is a repeating pattern throughout my life. My pride would tell me its my reward for being the good girl (in public). My more realistic little grey cells would tell me it's God's grace I don't deserve. My cynicism would tell me it's a setup for future trials. So what's the real truth? Most likely a combination of all three. I spotted this spoilage in my life when I was considering how much of my own desires and wanting my own way to assert in a...situation...I have going on right now. The thought "I want this to go my way and I get what I want" crossed my mind, and I thought, is this true? I started thinking...yes, actually, it is. Thankfully I figured out that asserting my own way in this situation is going to get me nowhere. I'm rather glad I've picked up on this fact, because it helps to explain why I'm so good at getting favors and privileges in life with little manipulation. Granted I have no fear of manipulation when it's necessary, and I can be quite good at it, if I feel it's needed. That comes from being female. Manipulation to get my own way is something that must not be overused. That will get old fast, and people won't trust your motives. Thankfully I've learned this by watching other people, and not through personal experience. It can be fun once in a while, but it must be used ever so cautiously. So that's that for now. Happy New Year to all, may God bless you and your loved ones in the coming year.

p.s. common sense life lesson for the week: don't leave sugar snap peas out of the refrigerator for two days, they tend to get deformed and taste a bit...off. A bit of re-refrigeration can cure it a bit, but only so much. Yeah...that's up there with the ravioli can...