Life is a Rollercoaster

My life is never predictable. Most of the time I enjoy this, but sometimes there are days where I wish I knew what was going to become of it all. I analogize life to a rollercoaster becuase it is constantly moving, up and down, twists and turns, and upside down. At times it makes you wonder: who am I, what am I doing here, and which way is up and out of this mess we call life? I've learned in the past few months that college can cause alot of those moments, as can the drama of life. Though the two are often related, they aren't necessarily. So what's the point of this little rambling about the confusion of life? Two things: first and most important, although life is constantly changing, God is faithful and will often be the only thing that makes sense amidst all those "how did this become my life?" moments. Second, to share something I wrote a little over a month ago. I write alot when I'm feeling like I can't really explain feelings in plain conversation. I had been feeling sad and frustrated about a friendship that seemed, and still seems, fated to be anything but normal. We seem to fluctuate weekly between the polar opposites of friendship: really close, or barely speaking at all. (I'm hoping to get this figured out soon). The strange thing was that I have now turned this into a song-in-progress. Normally I don't put my writings to music, although I suppose in a way it makes sense since both writing and music are things that "connect", if you will, in my life. There's a bit of irony in it all, as the tune that seemed to attach itself to the song is rather light by itself, whereas the words are more introspective and nostalgic.

Written 11/16/2007

My world is brighter than the sunshine whenever you're around
Your smile can light my darkest hour
Your voice can still my restless heart
When I'm in your arms I know everything will be alright
You're all I want; You're all I need
You're all I want, but now you're gone...

I can't see your smile
I can't touch your face
I can't hear your voice
Telling me I'll be ok
It's time to move on
I've got to be strong
All I've got is Jesus now
I know He'll catch me when I fall

The first half is the first "verse" and the second half is the "chorus" I guess. I have some scraps of a second "verse" rattling around in my head, they'll probably start coming together in the next few days. Meanwhile, I've got to finish wrapping Christmas presents, so that's all for tonight. I'll leave you all with this: "And in the same region there were shepherds out in the field watching over their flock through the night. And an angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone all around them, and they were filled with fear. And the angel said to them, "Don't be afraid, I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all people. Today in the city of David, a Saviour is born who is Christ the Lord. And this will be a sign for you: you will find a baby wrapped in cloths laying in a manger." And suddenly there was a multitude of angels with the first angel praising God and saying, "Glory to God in the highest. Peace and good will to those on earth with whom He is pleased!" ~Luke 2: 8-14~ Merry Christmas y'all!